Confidence: Know Your Enemy

Self Loathing walks up to confidence in a bar…

 One step forward, two steps back.  I’m still new at my “out of the box” life, where I stand strong in confidence that I am unique.  Great even.  That I bring something to the table of life.  I have been finding a lot of confidence in myself through yoga.  I feel as though I achieve more goals lately, even if its just victory in holding my full side plank without shaking like a leaf.  However, forty of my waking hours a week are not spent in the yoga studio, they are spent at work.  Oh what challenges await me there; potential for growth, opportunities for humility.  That familiar foe imperfection manages to show up at least once (okay, multiple times) a day.  My imperfection tends to present itself as a peacock, brightly colored, drawing the attention of everyone.  I try to shake it off, “pobody’s nerfect” right?  But I tend to be far less gracious to myself than I am to my students or others.

 Something I must remind myself of is that imperfect doesn’t mean horrible, or unlovable, or even bad employee.  Imperfect means human.  As a girl trying to navigate the world, I will do some things well, and some things not as well.  At one point in my life, when I was doing YWAM in Australia I struggled with this too.  I found this amazing Bible verse that helped me combat the “not good enoughs” and remind myself that God made me, everything about me.

As I go back to work today (only two more days until Hawaii!), I want to remember this verse and stay comfortable in the knowledge that I am marvelous.

 “Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!  Your workmanship is marvelous- how well I know it.” Psalm 139:14 (NLT)

***Back Update:  If you are a praying person, please pray!  Its getting better, but I want to be 100% for Hawaii!  Thanks!***

3 Responses to “Confidence: Know Your Enemy”

  1. TBone
    April 11, 2011 at 9:59 am #

    Don’t forget Wally’s famous tiger balm!

  2. Joy
    April 11, 2011 at 12:33 pm #

    Ah sister, I hear you, for sure. Ann Lamott helps, too. 🙂 Praying for your back…but no matter what happens, a bad back in Hawaii is better than a bad back in a fluorescent-lit classroom!

  3. Sarah
    April 11, 2011 at 12:59 pm #

    So true Joy Joy! Thanks for that reminder! 🙂

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